Saturday, June 11, 2005
I thought of really letting go. And now I think I really should. Everything is planned in my life, as well as yours. Its just
stupidity and
silliness if I carry on like this. I was wondering what made me so crazy and mesmerised - nothing. Absolutely nothing. You're no different from other guys. Only those that I've wasted my youth and time on. For 6 months, including the times after we seperated, I've been crying and going crazy over everything that has happened. I lied to myself, I lied to everyone else that I'm alright. I still need more time.
There's no point to cling on anymore. All that passed me will be left behind, staying there till I die. My life is like a number line. I started with 0, now it's 17. From that very day when the number turns 13, I was having puppy love until I met you. Whenever I see you with that shit Naomi, she just makes my blood boil. Because I'm jealous. Though you're not together, and I know you won't, she still suck big time. But now, you can even fuck her upside down, I won't care. Just make sure you don't get AIDS. =)
Alright now.